Life lately has been more hectic and chaotic than I ever could have imagined. Between my dream internship with Modern Luxury to being Editor-in-Chief for Odyssey to keeping up with the school work to trying to pay the bills and still have a social life, I have been busier these past few months that I have ever been. Anytime I got a spare second to do something for me, I ran from my computer because that’s what consumed me all day every day. I chose to get out of the house and do something fun or I would lay in bed for a day and just watch tv and try to revive myself after being sleep deprived for too long.
As things start to wind down and I can finally see the finish line, I find myself wanting to invest more in myself and my future. I am officially 28 days from walking across that stage and never looking back! While I am beyond ready to be done and move on into the ‘real world,’ I’m starting to think back on all of my college memories. This final countdown is truly making me realize that college was the best years of my life, so far. While I experienced pain and heartache like no other, I learned more and grew more than ever before.
I traveled whenever I felt like it. I experimented with hair color. I made rash decisions to go out on weeknights. I chose to ditch responsibilities some days and not leave my house. I spent countless nights chugging coffee and Redbull to stay awake because I left things till the last minute. I met new people every day; some of those people I have never seen since and some are my absolute best friends and I couldn’t imagine a day without speaking to them. I went out on whims and went after things that I wanted, sometimes I was successful, others I was not. I made personal relationships with professors who pushed me to go after my dreams, and for them, I am eternally grateful. I had some professors that I really questioned how in the world they were allowed to be teaching at a university level. I made good grades, and I made bad grades. I made countless mistakes and learned from every single one.
But here’s the thing – I’m not leaving college with a single regret. Yeah, there are moments that I look back on and say to myself, “Carly, why did you do that?” or “I can’t believe that really happened.” or “If you would have just stayed home that night!” But if it wasn’t for those moments, I wouldn’t have the memories I do today. I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Because of my mistakes and decisions, good and bad, I shaped myself and prepared myself for what is to come – the real world. I’m confident in knowing that I truly got the best out of my college years. I didn’t shelter myself and miss out on all the opportunities to be a true college kid, I didn’t sell myself short, I went after what I wanted and I didn’t party too hard or distract myself with all the wrong things. I lived in the moment, I did what I wanted and what was best for me – and look at me now. Graduating college early, healthy, alive, experienced and happy.
Yeah, this past semester I had to set my passions aside at most times while I did what was best for my future but I don’t regret it. I have my whole life to go after my passions. This is how I look at it now – it’s me time. It’s time to focus on no one but myself and what I want. Whether that means taking a job in a city that isn’t Atlanta or taking some time to myself to travel and work on my passions or go back to school – who knows. But what I do know is that myself and my future is all I have my sights set on right now! That means going after my dream job, putting more work into my blog, going out and doing personal projects, learning new skills and truly investing in myself.
Whether you’re in the same shoes as me or you’re pretty set in a way of life, for the time being, take some me time. Do things for yourself. Make yourself happy. Go after your dreams. Be selfish. Don’t let anyone stop you because at the end of the day, no one else is going to get you where you want to go, other than yourself.
Life lately has been crazy, stressful, busy, hectic and flying by faster than I ever imagined – but I wouldn’t change a thing. Plus, it’s not slowing down anytime soon.
Outfit details: Off-the-shoulder thermal, Free People; Jeans, TJ Maxx; Shoes, Cole Haan; Faux black leather jacket, Forever 21; Purse, Cole Haan; Sunglasses (not pictured), Free People; Necklace, PacSun.